We're so lucky...

Today I had one of those "we're so lucky..." days.

My mom had Moo overnight last night, so it was just me and Woo this morning. She likes a lie-in (for now anyway) and so when we got up, Jeremy Kyle was on. Disclaimer: I don't ever watch Jeremy Kyle, usually we're at playgroup or something by then. But lazy morning =trash TV so...

Today it was a christmas special. There were several children on the show who had done amazing things. And then a clip came on of a beautiful little girl with cerebal palsy. I listened as her mom talked about what life was like for their family and how she had exceeded expectations just by talking and walking.

Now I've always responded to claims that Woo's birth and the following days was traumatic with a big No! It wasn't. The labour was perfect, her birth was an amazing moment, she exceeded expectations from very early on just by staying alive. But I never doubted that she would. Probably through naivety, but still I never doubted her. I did entertain the idea of a disability though, but not realistically. I repeatedly told my husband that if she were disabled, then lucky her for being born to parents who would go above and beyond to help her reach her potential. Everything was positive in my head.

To be honest, I think i was in complete denial and by the time I had chance to process it all, we'd had a lot of 'all clears'. So, no, Woo's birth, and what followed, was not traumatic for me (although I can't say that for my husband).

But this morning i had a real life insight into what life could nearly have been like for us. There was talks of cerebal palsy when Woo was born. My beautiful baby could've been so different. I could've been that mom talking on the tv. I have no idea if the treatment she received after birth helped in preventing this, or whether she recovered all by herself. I have cried a lot today. Some tears for that mom who is living a life she never expected she would. Some for the life I very nearly lived. Some for the life we are living now. Some tears for emotions I'm not even sure of.

Alls I know is, we're so lucky.